A very good article. Normally I can see where a reminder like yours would get me up off my “couch” aand get me going. However, I have been in so much pain and for so long, I think I forgot how to succeed.

I had a great job, lot’s of friends (I thought) and was having a great time now that I was single from divorcing my HS Sweetheart. It was a “Failure” but I bounced right back and had more “good life” ahead of me. Then it started to fall apart. The jobs sucked, and I did not perform as well. After an annual fall golf outing with some friends, I decided to get about the 15th knee surgury, but this was a replacement. Details are not needed, but I went in on Thanksgiving of 2001,(right after I got fired from a job I had 5 months. I was in a hospital or laid up at home until January of 2004. I took a job I didn’t like, found another one 6 months later. I was so excited I quit my current company on a voice offer. She denied the offer when I came in.

Long story short, I have tried multiple jobs and companies since 2004 (6) and in 2009 started my own business. I got married in 2010, but that’s a whole nother story. Since 2009, I have not had one piece of business, I have had $0 income for 4 years and surviving based on the gracious ness of my wife. Most of the time I just want to crawl in a hole and die, and suicide is always close to my head.

How do I climb out of the hole when I feel that after all this I am no longer on a good track, and each time I try to climb, I fall.

Help!

Thanks Johann. I so much appreciate your support. You definitely encourage my effort to be authentic and transparent.

You are welcome Kirsten. Drugs and alcohol are certainly two of the big ones. The key is to be willing to take the first step in overcoming them.

Thanks Andrew. Pain can take many shapes but their is consistency in overcoming it. We always need to be ready to encourage and support those around us.